Once again I find myself facing one of those social situations that makes me incredibly uncomfortable. Before, it was going to the artist trading card gathering in Seattle. I pushed on and had a great time in spite of my nerves.
This time it is a live drawing session in Bothell on Friday. It is at an art studio and has live nude and clothed models for people to draw and paint. I'm apprehensive, as I always am, about being around other artists. I know nobody is judging me but that is always sitting in the back of my head. It is magnified whenever I have to be around people I don't know. I realize that just like the SeARTle gathering my nerves will calm after only a few minutes and then I will be too busy drawing to care.
Most people who know me don't realize how much I struggle with groups of people. I can get in front of a crowd and make a silly fool of myself and be fine, but put me in a small group of adults or a party and I fold in on myself. If I could blend into the wallpaper I would sometimes try. Only by forcing myself to do it am I able to overcome that anxiety though.
There is also some nervousness about drawing a nude model. I haven't done it before and therefore it is scary. Once the pencil touches the paper all that will go away though and there will only be the drawing.